For 3 months, I've raised my game so I learned a lot of lessons there. Then for the last 2 weeks, things have changed. Here is what I can remember about the 3 month period and the last 2.5 weeks.
3 months Pre-prep training…eating on a plan but living life. Being very consistent with workouts. You can see a few posts back the plan outline.
- 1 shelf holds 3 days of tupperwared food.
- The dishes are much more of a pain that the cooking.
- Pack a fork and a napkin
- Be ok with eating cold food in the car.
- Focusing on pushing a muscle as hard as you can and then letting it recover so when its revealed its where it needs to be. New intensity.
- Training for performance is different. But there is an artistry to training for muscle balance and I performed better the more balanced I got. No idea how that will translate visually in 75 days. It probably won't be enough.
- Blowing off 2 workouts a week is working at 75% effort on a 6 workout a week plan!!
Week 1
The first week of the new diet was awesome. It was the honey moon.
Week 2
The second week I saw physical changes quickly and I FELT PHYSICAL CHANGES, including
- weakness in workouts
- lack of stamina for workday and parenting
- foggy mind, aggravated
- self doubt (shouldn't I be farther, is what Im doing enough?)
- elated with the results I've seen
- convinced nothing is happening
- major swings in the above two emotions sometimes within the same hour
- thoughts of cheating, justifying, taking a black and white plan and making changes thinking you're still on plan??
- All while feeling like there have been no changes as if the last 3.5 months haven't happened
- YOU NEED A COACH, AND SUPPORT.
- My coach allowed me to talk, showed interest and shared experience and tips without judgement or attachment.
- My support is friends and clients asking me and verbally supporting me.
- My support is my husband supporting every grocery trip, every workout, every sacrifice that affects he and Ellen, every need that interferes and inconveniences my family. And he talks about it as if its a done deal, he shows zero doubt that I can do it, which is speaks REALLY LOUDLY to me in my times of doubt. My support is my Dad cooking super clean on plan Sunday dinners and the entire family eats them then he sends the leftovers home with me. He has met me for morning cardio even!
This week
This week I feel like Im walking through vaseline. Workouts have become a walk in the park by comparison. They aren't easy, they actually make me want to cuss, and its is no fun to train at a high intensity with no endorphins in a vat of vaseline. But its really NOTHING compared to the discipline of the diet and dealing with everyday life and workouts and all the emotions I listed in week 2 with the lack of carbs. Its a MIND GAME. It tells you you aren't going to make it so why suffer? Why put forth so much effort with no guarantee of it working? It's not physical, its ONLY mental right now.
So theres a blog post all about me, all about I, all about number 1…if you know the Toby Keith song, "all about me" that is what I felt like on this! So with 75 days to go, that is where we are.
So when I say "its all in your head" I really mean it :)
Anna
