Day 33 {Signs}

...do you believe in signs?

...do you pay attention enough to see them?

Over the past few weeks - this topic of signs was been planted in my brain by some Facebook posts and then also some personal face to face conversations - so I was like wow that was a coincidence.  Or was it?  Nah....  that was a SIGN.  Right?  No.  Could be.  Decidedly Undecisive :)

But it made me ask myself if I believe in signs and the newer more faithful (less controlling and fearful) version of me was able to say yes, I believe in signs.  From there I had my eyes open.

Then ~  in the past week on 4 separate unrelated cases I had THE EXACT SAME thing spoken into me by people who came into (or back into) my life about exactly the path I was supposed to take and I was thankful to for the heads up to be aware of signs.  The confirmation and message is clear and a big fat arrow guiding me down the path I was already heading.  It was a reminder of what I should do for others and what I have to give...even if I feel uncomfortable and question myself and have enjoyed the safety of not doing it - not putting myself out there and conserving the energy of trying.

I believe everyone has their thing.  Their thing that blesses others and the people around the love and nobody can mimic.  I also believe its like a young magician learning to "control" or harness their power once they realize they have it.  And there are mistakes, mishaps, misuses and consequences of all of that can be discouraging from enjoying sharing that gift.  No idea if that made sense.  But for me, its been 100% true.

The other side of the sign is that when you "Step Out In Faith" to hone your craft and REFINE so there are less mistakes, mishaps, and misuses - you will fail and you will face obstacles, judgement and ridicule.  Ini there words --- there is a large energy cost.  Also why I believe most people would rather just dead man float down the lazy river of life and let the undertow just drag them through their life.  To navigate away from that current is at times exhausting and absolutely required if you want to share your unique gift!   In my highest times of conviction, those things (rejection, energy drain, obstacles) were just fuel.

But between me and you (yes the intimacy of the entire internet) I often crash into intense lows after these high performing times of conviction and fight.  And I turn to flight.  So my new mature, faithful, "version" wants to embark on doing what I feel I am best at, contribute the most, enjoy the success and value added to others and myself and family ..  to swim against the current and refine my craft and reach for the highest cause and highest experience of life ... but without the crash.  I want the yin without the yang and that is not possible.

And that is where this season has led me.  So many people - if not all people - I believe are driven by a need to be themselves, to bring their uniques gift to the table of life and to do that in work and personal life in some form.  I know this.  So hopefully someone will resonate with this and also be encouraged if they share my beliefs and experience.

Just keep swimming :)  And follow the signs.