1) How do you feel now that you are not a gym owner? (MOST COMMON!!!)
That is easy! MIXED! Guilty but not sad. A little relieved. Somewhat left out but I think that is just because I have trouble with seasons even when they are good because truth be told I don't want to be in a gym, with loud music and my heart is not to write training programs anymore. Relieved because I wasn't doing a great job and I *HATE* that feeling. I worked hard to build a great name and I didn't want to tarnish that by continuing to push a square peg in a round hole anymore. I even attempted to give it my 110% and for something I was once so gifted at, when my 110% did not create progress and benefit others ~ I KNEW it was my time to go serve somewhere else! So I am very much enjoying life and SPACE and less responsibility. And a sense that I am making a difference and an impact on others, and learning how to be my best version of ME in the process. Namely having the ability to work on myself to be sure Im giving the VERY BEST I CAN BE to Ellen and Mike and my team!!!
2) Is Ellen Rose 11 now?
YES! And she's a young eleven which I love and says "I don't wanna grow up" which I LOVE! She is funny and witty like her dad and shy like I used to be. She's smart but doesn't love school. She is very forgiving and assumes the best from others. She is hyper sensitive and loves very hard. I know life in that skin and it won't be the easiest especially to continue to believe in people and their intentions. She also loves to cook! Which is cool and we are going to let her try a horse lesson soon. She LOVES music and cats and is starting to value her friends more and more but as she said this weekend "Mom, you and Daddy are my favorite 2 people". As it should be, baby girl. As it should be.
3) What is next?
Being present is next! Working on me is next! I want to dream big and have a big fun life but don't want to be so focused on building whats ahead that i don't find BIG JOY in every day with my people. I have a *great* inner circle. They know who they are because I talk about them to each other. I don't like a lot of sorta friends. I like a few high quality - make-me-better friends and I have them. I would not change a thing!
